one step forward

I sent my internship resume to Afterimage (a Rochester magazine) and am crossing my fingers in hopes that the editor will call me back.
Anxiety over what I will do after graduating heightens with every passing day, however if I do get the chance to intern at a magazine I think it will open doors, and give me a new perspective on where my degree can take me. The experience of it, more than just a new thing to add to a resume, is what I am looking forward to (should I actually get it). I don't know the first thing about magazines, but would love the opportunity to learn, and maybe even find that it's something I would love to do for a living... that is something that, at this point in life, I am always on the look out for.
For so long I have imagined myself becoming an author, but seldom do people accomplish that after they write their first book. For some it might not happen until much later in life, if at all. Though I would not trade all the knowledge i've gained in creative writing for a more practical education (say nursing or accounting), sometimes I doubt the choice I made to be an english major. Some people say that such a degree can take you almost anywhere, some say nowhere. Either way, because my experience in the working world is limited to shelving books, food service and a grociery store, i've never been sure of what path I should take. Where do I go, what do I do, always I am thinking... what is the next step?
In March i'll be twenty-five and I never imagined that mid-twenties would be so hard... actually it's just the opposite; for some reason I thought that I would have had everything figured out by now. Instead I feel like every avenue of my life has shifted into crossroads, and now I have to make choices and stop drifting before I lose myself indefinately in my own indecision.
It is also very exciting.... Maybe everything right now is uncertain.
I guess that's why I feel like the sky's the limit.